/trying to appear like i've got it together but i'm falling apart/
today felt like a lost battle.
and in between sobs, i tried to tell my therapist over the phone about everything that's been eating me up inside, of misplaced confidence and my warped body image - all of which that led to no sound conclusion.
on good days, i mentally chant my positive reinforcements and then on the other end of a good day, like today…i hear everyone's voices in my head about how a. i fucked up b. i am a terrible person c. it's my fault and yada yada, and then i'll feel like crying again and i'll binge eat and regret and run and repeat.
yep, life in a nutshell. this world is still glitched.
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