stretched

there is only one of me.

i have my life to lead, errands to run, family to spend time with, hobbies to take up, interests to explore, friends to meet, events/festivals to attend, classes/work, and et cetra et cetra.

and because there's only one of me, how am i supposed to do all of the above without first tiring myself out? i make the effort to allocate time for everyone and everything and it really hurts me when people demanddemand&demand for more, or worse when they decide to blame it all on me.

it's my fault i have 'too many friends'
it's my fault i want to learn everything at once
it's my fault i have too much going on
it's my fault i don't manage my time well enough
it's my fault i'm not pleasing youYOUyouYOUyou&you

it's always my fault, but how am i supposed to please everyone? i try because i care. but it's also because i care that i get upset, and i hate to be upset.

i'm so tired of not having enough me-time, so tired of unappreciative people, so tired of being upset at people.